Sunday, April 26, 2009 Y
11:12 PM ; C.O Rocks Your Socks
okayyyy,
so yes, here to blog.
so yes, c.o got bronze.
only bronze.
honestly, it was damn ironic.
before they announced the results,
many people were just sitting around.
camwhoring, talking, laughing, smiling and everything.
i was camwhoring with my girls.
but when the person was out to announce the results.
i bet everyone was damn worried.
so before our school, it was chua chu kang sec.
and they announced the results by order of our schools.
when they just started, i just started praying.
and i just started being VERY SCARED.
and yes, by the time they said "CHUA CHU KANG SECONDARY SCHOOL"
my tears rolled down alr.
i was damn scared.
damn scared to hear the results for our school.
and after that, i just heard "OUTRAM SECONDARY SCHOOL, 欧南中学, bronze, 铜"
cried like mad. i don't know why.
NO, NOT THAT I DON'T KNOW WHY.
it's just that. i can't control my tears.
there's too many reasons alr.
firstly, i think that
we all deserve so much better than a bronze.
MUCH MUCH MORE THAN JUST A BRONZE.
i can see all the hard work everyone is putting in.
really. everyone memorising the scores.
turning up for practices, INTENSIVE practices.
putting up with teachers' nags, and scoldings.
and when we were practicing on tues,
just one day before the SYF,
we added movements which was damn last minute.
and really, i know how embarrassing you all feel.
BECAUSE I FEEL THE SAME.
but still, everyone trying their best.
to do everything that can get us a silver.
secondly, all the encouraging messages.
i mean really, when i was crying.
there were alot of ppl who came up to me and told me not to cry.
"most importantly, we did our best. you're a gd chairperson."
and everything.
really, all these made me cry more.
but yes, i really need all these encouragements,
to keep me going and all. (:
so thankyou people.
thirdly,
miss wong.
SHE'S LIKE THE BEST TEACHER-IN-CHARGE EVER.
she's been SUPER encouraging.
like many many people just don't really know how much she contributed.
and really don't know how to appreciate that.
many just don't know how much stress she's under.
and through all these practices,
miss wong has been with us, sitting in the music room/mbox to listen to us.
video taping us. to let us know about our unnecessary movements, then correct them.
worrying about our health.
you know when i requested for mac breakfast for all of you,
she was actually worried you all would be hungry before we go up the stage.
and wanted to order old chang kee for all of you or something.
but it was damn heaty, so i told her there's no need to.
seriously, and after that.
when we were changing.
she came up to synyu, baoyi and i.
gave us all a pat on the shoulder.
and told us we did our best.
sometimes, it's all these small things that make me cry again.
i just feel that i'm not gd enough.
i'm not gd enough to lead c.o to greater heights.
to achieve at least a silver.
like after SYF when i see her,
i feel this sense of guilt.
don't really know why.
but seriously.
thankyou miss wong,
for always being there, always encouraging me,
giving me the chance as a chairperson,
guiding me, and all that you've done.
i don't know what c.o will become if you're not around.
REALLY. you're the best!
thankyou for the messages you sent me after the SYF.
i know you're sad too, because we ONLY got a bronze.
but still, you put on a smile to cheer us up.
telling us we improved, we did our best, we made you proud.
i really don't know how to thank you.
because you've really done alot.
I LOVE YOU.forthly,
all the instructors teaching us.
especially mr pang. and shimu.
they've been giving me so many advices.
but i know i haven't been doing my best.
i'm sry, and thankyou.
because i know it's not easy being a conductor.
having to conduct an orchestra which was NEVER a full orchestra.
then,
all the members.
when i see you people cry.
i KNOW you people care.
although you people make me flare up sometimes.
but when you all turn up for practices.
try your best to do all the things that we requested.
and when you cry/am unhappy.
i know you care for ossco.
thankyou mabel for the encouraging message.
thankyou suting and peishan for that hug.
thankyou tingyan, jessie, gloria and valarie for helping me tie my hair/make up for me.
thanks for everything really.
i hate to have conflicts with ANY one of you.
i HATE to be hated by any single one of you.
because when we just stepped up as a committee.
chris told us "sure have to have one gd person, and another bad"
and so, i'm the bad person.
because i know i can't stay calm, smile and just ASK why you don't turn up/turn up late.
because i can only scream and shout and give this attitude face.
because i just CAN'T be that calm.
i'm sry if i've been soooo irritating, and stuffs.
i'm sry if i've done anything wrong.
but still, thankyou all for tolerating me, and still working and cooperating with me.
THANKYOU. (:
committee members.
all of us have been setting examples.
and working hard together to get this c.o going.
thankyou everyone for sharing the burden with me.
thankyou everyone for working hard together.
i may not have set the best example and stuffs.
but still, thankyou all for contributing.
at the end of the day,
i'm sure all of you won more than a bronze.
you'll have gained experience.
with this experience, i hope
ALL OF YOU, will strive harder.
TRY harder, work harder and achieve more than a bronze two years later.
it's good, if you've done your very best.
but if you've not.
i'm SURE you won't want to feel the same 2 years later.
so put in MORE effort, time. and do your best.
DON'T EVEN REGRET. because it'll too late.
i may not be a gd chairperson. but i've tried my best.
AND i'm still trying my best.
it's not easy being a chairperson. really.
at times, i've been wanting to give up.
and not bother about c.o ANYMORE.
but there's always something pulling me back.
and only after they announced the results for our school for SYF,
then i know how much i care about this c.o.
and how much i wanna be with this c.o. for long.
before i actually step up.
i counted. 4 big events.
first, the camp.
then the end year concert.
third, recruitment.
forth, SYF.
in between, we also had events like performing for the water polo people.
performance during chinese new year.
speech day, teacher's day performance. and so on.
then i told myself,
after all these, i'm going to step down.
and won't have to care about c.o anymore. HOORAY.
but now, i wish i can spend more time.
more fun times, not only during practices.
but have more outings, more bbqs and stuffs.
this is such a long post.
so many things to say.
but yes, that's all i guess.
i hope all of you will still strive for the best after committee has stepped down.
and rmb me, as the first chairWOMAN.
wait, am i even the first? i don't know.
but all these years, since 05 to 08,
all were guys. so yes. (:
thankyou all for being so nice, and cooperative. (:
cya all in school.
keep smiling and stay happy.
AND KEEP LOVING C.O. :D
love,
BENDA.
p/s: pictures up soon okay. (:
post too long alr. hahahaha. (:
